The way I feel, I have not felt since high school. I feel unwanted by my own family. i am spiraling through depressing thoughts, and I have no goals right now. I am starting to wonder what I'm doing here, on earth. I like to sleep, because at least in my dreams, I am not happy or sad, I just exist through thoughts.
I am angry? hidden anger? maybe I dont know what anger means, but I do not feel angry, I do however feel all these things, aside from stomach ulcers
Checklist for Hidden Anger
- Procrastination in the completion of imposed tasks.
- Perpetual or habitual lateness.
- A liking for sadistic or ironic humor.
- Sarcasm, cynicism or flippancy in conversation.
- Frequent sighing.
- over politeness, constant cheerfulness, attitude of "grin and bear it".
- Smiling while hurting.
- Frequent disturbing or frightening dreams.
- Over-controlled monotone speaking voice
- Difficulty in getting to sleep or sleeping through the night.
- Boredom, apathy, loss of interest in things you are usually enthusiastic about.
- Slowing down of movements.
- Getting tired more easily than usual.
- Excessive irritability over trifles.
- Getting drowsy at inappropriate times.
- Sleeping more than usual / maybe 12 to 14 hours a day.
- Waking up tired rather than rested or refreshed.
- Clenched jaws or grinding of the teeth / especially while sleeping.
- Facial tics, spasmodic foot movements, habitual fist clenching and similar repeated physical acts done unintentionally or unaware.
- Chronically stiff or sore neck or shoulder muscles.
- Chronic depression... extended periods of feeling down for no reason.
- Stomach ulcers.
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